It Is Well With My Soul

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5/17/2018

This morning on the prayer line, I was reminded like Jacob, that I had to painfully and expectantly bury the love of my life.  When Rachel was dying, she gave her son a name that meant “pain”, but Jacob renamed their son to a name that means “Good Fortune”.  (Genesis 35:18)

No matter what season you are in GOD is there and you have to turn this season over to HIM to survive.  Therefore, like Jacob I also decided to rename my season of sorrow and grief to a season of Blessings, Grace, Mercy, Faith, Hope, and Love.

Do not disregard you season of sadness or grief. Remember what greatness came from the children of Jacob and Rachel.

Although my soul is in pain
Although my heart is still broken
Although the enemy is still attacking
Although I sometimes do not know my direction
Although the loneliness and silence is sometimes anguishing
Although I still reach out to….
Although I have to visit a cemetery
Although it is still so very hard

I refused to give in to the enemy!
I cannot and I WILL NOT!

My love for GOD and my FAITH in GOD will never let me yield to the enemy!

Lord please continue to hold me in the palm of your hands.

No matter what this looks like to me on the outside help me to always see you through my pain.  Even now Lord, I thank you that through the storms, in the eye of the hurricane, in the middle of the tornado’s funnel there is a beautiful calmness that reminds me that YOUR JOY and YOUR PEACE is just on the other side.

Help me to hold on to those moments.

Help me to remember this when I want to give up and be done!

Help me to continue to hold on just a little while longer.

Help me to know and remember that because of you “It Is Well with My Soul”

I Love you all!
Have a truly Blessed Day!

There is GOOD NEWS!!!

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5/4/2018

On this particular morning, at the beginning of May, we were given a challenge to share the good news of Christ on our social media pages.

Now, I have never been afraid to express my feeling about what the Lord has done in my life when times are good.  However, it had been a great challenge to continue to do so especially during tough season.  However, I do so knowing that no matter what GOD is always with me and HE HAS BEEN GOOD TO ME! SO I WILL continue to TALK and TELL ABOUT THE GOODNESS OF THE LORD whenever HE leads me to do so.

When I am facing a challenge, or going through the most difficult time in my life, there has ALWAYS been a blessing in the storm.  Sometimes I did not see it and GOD has used others to help lift me up and see through the raging storm.

IF my story, my situation, my pain, and eventually my triumph will help, someone going through a similar circumstance, then guess what?  It is all worth it!  

Let me tell you about the enemy.  He means for us to keep quiet, keep it to ourselves.  GOD does not mean for us to keep his blessings to us to ourselves, because they should and must be shared and celebrated.  HE also does not mean for to keep our struggles to ourselves.  Just imagine the how we can receive encouragement and support and we can encourage someone else who is afraid to speak out.

“In the same way, let your light shine before people in such a way that they will see your good actions and glorify your Father in heaven.” (Matthew 5:16)

I am not perfect by any means, and I do not have it all together, but I do know that GOD has a plan for each of us, and we are called to be ambassadors to the unbelievers.   Paul said in Philippians, “I’ve got my eye on the goal where God is beckoning us onward –to Jesus.  I am off and running and I’m not turning back.”

I have said before I never want anyone, to walk a mile in my shoes, but has life goes on we will all face death, grief, and suffering of a loved one, even a spouse at a young age.  I want you to always remember… you are NEVER alone…  live with that JOY!

I Love you all!
Have a truly Blessed Day!

Never Ever, Give Up!

Never Ever, Give Up!

April 27, 2018

“There’s more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience in turn forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary—we can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!”  (Romans 5:3-5 MSG)

God has a perfect plan for all of our lives.  Even if life seems hopeless right now and all you can see is what is in front of you.  I need you to know that there is hope in the midst of every trial and every circumstance.  This is all because GOD is in the middle working it out on our behalf.  We are NEVER EVER in this battle of life alone.

It took me a minute to realize there was hope even in my circumstances. No one wants to become alone and a widow at 50 but I still have hope in GOD that he has my back.  I may grieve, I may cry, I may break down… but I always get back up and keep moving!  When the enemy tries to convince me that I should quit and give up God is always here whispering daughter “You can do this, I got you!”

My hope in GOD is not shallow or misinformed.  It is deeply rooted in my soul that God will always make away.  We have always taught our girls; never give up on anything they start and no matter how long it takes… COMPLETE THE TASK!

I will never back down…
I will never give up….
I will continue to have hope in GOD!

Hope in GOD will never disappoint!
There Is More to Come
The devil IS a Liar and he has already LOST!
He is the ORIGINAL Biggest Loser
I know that God’s Grace and Mercy will always sustains me
GOD is always in control and HE is Still Good!

I love you all!

Out of the Darkness

February, 1 2018

When the going gets tough, the tough stands strong In CHRIST

“I am GOD, yes, I AM.  I haven’t changed. And because I haven’t changed, you, the descendants of Jacob, haven’t been destroyed.”  (Malachi 3: 6 MSG)

The enemy has many tricks but his best trick on is preying on the weak in spirit.  There are many ways to become weak in spirit… Mine is grief.

Let me share with you my experience and where I was…

The darkness is not a good place…
In the darkness things fester
In the darkness, the enemy shouts destruction
In the darkness, there is pain and suffering
In the darkness, there is loneliness and depression
In the darkness, there is suicidal thoughts
In the darkness, I have trouble seeing the cross
In the darkness, there is no rest
In the darkness my future seems like it is a mess
In the darkness is a place I used to be
In the darkness, my LORD found me
In the darkness I reached and cried out to my LORD and HE delivered me from me.

The lines above are real because it happened to me.
There is a reason why the scriptures say, “The light overcomes the darkness”
The darkness is real, evil, remorseless, and it tries me on a daily basis.

Even this morning!

I resided there not because I was weak, but because I experience the worse loss of my life.  The enemy used this to set up my new home, and he was and he was my new BFF.

Now do not judge me just because I was in the darkness, because I pray you never have to walk in my moccasins.  I pray you will never know my pain.
The darkness had its hold on me but…  HALLELUJAH

The LIGHT OF THE WORLD pulled me out of my dark home the enemy prepared for me and pulled me into his marvelous light.
Wherever the light shines, the darkness has to flee!
“The LIGHT shines in the darkness and the darkness can NEVER extinguish it!”  (John 1:5 NLT)

God did not changed. He was always there, and I lost my way.

Through the diagnosis
Through the treatments
Through the hospital stays
Through the in home care
Through the ER visits
Through the ICU
Through the transition
Through the home going
Through the grief
Through the darkness

‘‘In the LIGHT” has gloriously replaced all those “In the darkness” statements

In the LIGHT I flourish and grow
In the LIGHT, my GOD whispers words of affirmation, hope, and prosperity
In the LIGHT I find healing and Grace
In the LIGHT, I find love and acceptance
In the LIGHT, I find Resurrection, Rebirth, and Restoration
In the LIGHT the foot of the cross is in my sight and there I stand
In the LIGHT l, find supernatural Peace.
In the LIGHT, my future is promising and bright.
In the LIGHT is where I choose to take Refuge.
In the LIGHT, I am beautiful, strong, courageous, successful, kind, loving, and alive!

I am not saying this is easy, because it is NOT but I CHOOSE on a daily basis not to be consumed by the evil in the darkness.  Even this morning standing on the brink, I made a decision!

So when the enemy tries to pull me back I keep looking towards the hills and remember where my help comes from!

In the LIGHT I am because HE is!!

I Love You All!

God’s GPS

January 28, 2018

God’s GPS

 

I was out at a get together on Friday night, and someone asked if things were getting better? The first thing that comes out of my mouth is “No.”

Is this a conditioned response?

Is it a safe response?

Or am Just used to saying “no”?

Because of the way my GOD is set up,

and the way HE designed me,

and because of who HE is in me…

my response should have been YES!

As I told my teens this morning… “Put your hope, faith, and trust in God, and HE will never send you in the wrong direction!”

HIS GPS (God’s Positioning System)

It is the best on the market! If we trust HIM:

It never malfunctions, nor will it send us down a dead-end street!

It can get us home from anywhere with any satellite disruption!

If we get off the path, HE “recalculates” by showing us grace and mercy!

Then HE gets us back on the right road!

GOD’S GPS is forever programmed to take us to success, prosperity, and future blessings!

We do not have to key in any coordinates! They were already present before we were born!

HE Knows me!

HE knows how much I can handle!

HE loves me unconditionally with an everlasting love!

I truly don’t know how people survive life

without HIM!

My life is FAR from perfect, but I can look around, and with my trust in GOD, I know that it is getting better!

😘😘😘❤️❤️❤️🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽🙌🏾🙌🏾🙌🏾

Have a blessed

I love you all

It’s all GOD!

January 15, 2018

Prayer focus this morning is…. It’s all GOD!

When I think back about the last year and As I enter further in to year 2.0 I am no longer afraid of life. I am not afraid to be alone, and I am not afraid to survive! Because, GOD did not give me a spirit of fear but of love, peace, and sound mind.

To reiterate what was taught this morning, Daniel told King Nebuchadnezzar no human can help him, only GOD can!

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Daniel replied, “No wise man, enchanter, magician or diviner can explain to the king the mystery he has asked about, but there is a God in heaven who reveals mysteries. He has shown King Nebuchadnezzar what will happen in days to come. Your dream and the visions that passed through your mind as you were lying in bed are these:

(Daniel 2:27-28)

 

This is something I had to realize for myself! As much as I love Michael and depended on him for almost 29 years…He was not my saving grace… GOD IS! Once I had this notion in my head, heart, and spirit, I started feeling better not 100%… just better. I am still a work in progress, and HE is guiding me through this next chapter… but I am willing to put in the WORK!

I have to add to the prayer focus this morning and say:

It’s not me… It’s all GOD!

I am standing, even though there were times I want to give in, it’s not me… It’s all GOD!
I wanted to cry and shout but instead laughter flowed out, It’s not me…It’s all GOD!
When my heart is pain and you see me smiling despite this rain, It’s not me…It’s all GOD!
Think that I am insane? I am walking in something I can’t explain, but, It’s not me… It’s all GOD!
I have a sense of purposes that reaches beyond anything that I could have imagined, but, once again, it’s not me… It’s all GOD!

Death did not kill me!!! DEATH DID NOT KILL ME!!!

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It pained me!
It wounded me!
It terrified me!
It paralyzed me!
It stilled me!
It refocused me!
But, it did not destroy me!

 

 

But, I give credit where credit is due….
It’s not me…It’s all GOD

Be at peace my Brothers and Sisters!
Love you all to life!

 

”In This World but Not Of It”

This Morning Prayer focus was… ”In this world but not of it”

This road we walk will be marked with pain and suffering.  However, it is all in the way we handle it.

Remember, Jesus said “They (we) are not of this world, Just as I am not of this world” And ”Do not Conform to the things of this world” (John 17:16)

I will choose…yes, and I do mean CHOOSE to walk in the anointing that HE has given to me!

We all have a Choice to do whatever we want to do. We can continue in our old life, old ways of thinking, old ways of acting, OR we can CHOOSE the one who came to give us life!  We can CHOOSE to die OR follow JESUS. It is all a part of the “free will” that God has given us.

We ALL also have a calling on our lives, and once again, we can CHOOSE to accept OR reject it.
I know that in the midst of my own darkness and despair, I will always CHOOSE to say,” Lord Blessed Be Your Name”.

For this, I am very grateful!

I Love you all!

 

I Choose

October 1, 2016

Today will be a week that my Michael has been gone…

I wish I could tell you that my heart is not broken and everything is okay in my world….. truth? It’s not.  My sweet husband went home with the Lord last Tuesday and from the moment I felt his heart stop and he and the Lord left that hospital room, my world has been turned upside down and will never ever be the same.

I did not know that the last time we danced to our song, on my birthday, would be the last time we danced together.  What I would give to hear him say “My Lee Lee” one more time. But, as Job said, “Though you slay me, Yet will I trust you.”

I hurt
I cry
I laugh
I cry again
I also rejoice!!

I choose to rejoice because I have experienced pure love & joy for 28 years, from day 1!
I choose to rejoice because his family was and is still loved.
I choose to rejoice because my Michael leaves behind a legacy that his daughters and I can be proud of.
I choose to rejoice because I know my husband is in a much better place with Lord.
I choose to go on because I know that the Lord has great things in store for Michael Law’s Lovely Law Ladies.

I thank God that he lived a life that we can now look back upon and celebrate.
I thank God because I know that I was loved unconditionally and I loved my Michael with that same agape love.
I thank you God for a husband and father that supported his family, but kept us grounded when our ideas were wild and crazy!
I thank you God for giving me the extreme pleasure to share my life with Michael David Law, and I will think of you baby, only on “Two Occasions”, day and night.

I love you baby, now and forever more and I will see you soon….

Your Lee Lee