July 18, 2019
I am still developing this area; it is a work in progress. This is a two-step process for me. One involves the heart the other involves the physical body. There will be more to come on the physical body. I am working on my plan to become physically healthy. My daughter and I are adopting the Keto Diet and an exercising program. I am doing the meal prep and she is coordinating our exercise program. I will make sure to keep you updated on our progress and what we are doing, and how we are doing. Y’all keep praying for me! (lol)
Now the matters of the heart are different altogether. Shortly after Michael’s transition in 2016, I had a talk with my Pop, (Pop Skipp), and he told me not to close off my heart. I asked him what did he mean by that because surely he did not mean what I was thinking. He did. He said that Michael would not want me to be alone and that he would want me to be happy. I told him I know but that would never happen, ever! It was the furthest thing from my mind. Actually, I told one of my brothers at church that God would have to put someone right in front of me for that to happen. This will have to wait for another blog post discussion at a later date. (Smile)
Matters of the heart involve more than just the love of another person. Yes, that is very important; because we all desire the need to be wanted and loved but matters of the heart also include your passions. What you are passionate about should fuel your heart, encourage you, and stimulate you to move forward. This was a time that I used to work on myself.
Life-Long Goal #1: Bachelor’s Degree
Despite the enemy’s rude accusations and intrusion in my life, in 2017 I DID finish a lifelong dream that he said I could never accomplish!
I completed my Undergraduate Degree!
From the time that I had to leave school in the ’80s, I have always had the desire to finish my degree. I grew up in Highland Park Michigan in a small town surrounded by the Detroit Metro area, with my cousins, the Heaths. My Grandmother’s married last name was Shaw, but she was born in Warrington GA. Yes, she is the one who taught me how to cook.
I had been in school from 2008 to 2017! So yes, I was discouraged and especially then because I seriously doubted myself. I was very close in In May of 2016, but due to Michael declining health, I decided to take a break. This was important for me because I wanted to be there fully for him as his caregiver.
In January 2017 a few months after his transition, I thought I was ready. You know the enemy was waiting on me! I enrolled in classes and I started getting anxious, and the thoughts came that I was not ready, I could not do this, and I was going to fail. I dropped the classes I and I had succumbed to defeat. Nevertheless, we serve an awesome GOD that does not give up on us that easily!
A few weeks later, my academic advisor called me, and he noticed that I had dropped out of classes for this session. His exact words were, “I know you are having a rough time and dealing with many things right now. But I wanted you to know that you only need 3 elective classes to graduate” I said “What!” He said, “Yes ma’am you only need three classes and they are electives to receive your diploma” Let me tell you taking two online classes in an 8-week period is not an easy task and I needed to take three! However, was determined to finish!
One of the last conversations I had with Michael was about school, and how much it was costing and how long I had been going. He said “Lita, I don’t care about all of that, I just want you to finish” I pushed and prayed through those 8 weeks and on May 15, 2017, I received my Bachelor of Arts in Biblical and Theological Studies!
I am finally a college graduate!! GOD IS GOOD!!
Life-Long Goal #2: Membership
For as long as I could remember, I wanted to be a part of a Sorority, but not just any sorority. I admired different women in my life that were members of this organization for years. I knew to be a part of a group of strong, extraordinary, educated women; I needed to step up my game. I did not just watch from the shadows, I continued life. I worked in my church and my community among many of these women. They are already my friends and sisters.
On January 13, 2018, I went to a meeting to gather more information and to let it be known that I was interested in starting the application process for membership into their organization. After receiving all of the necessary information, I began to gather my own documents and information needed for the application. Once I completed the application process, I waited and prayed hoping that I was among those selected to be granted the opportunity to seek membership into this illustrious organization. I finally received a call that I was selected, and I was ecstatic!! My 13 line sisters and I entered into an exhilarating, enlightening, and knowledgeable process, and on April 15, one day shy of what would have been my 30th wedding anniversary; I fulfilled a lifelong dream we were granted membership into the greatest sorority on the planet, Delta Sigma Theta Sorority, Inc.
Even though it was the day before what was our wedding anniversary, this day turned out remarkable! Here I was still healing and dealing with my grief, anger, sadness, and depression. Thinking about what could have been and once again, God showed up and gave me a new reason to celebrate during this period. It could have been a week before or a week earlier, but it was the same week. (God’s divine plan) From that day on this time from in April will NOT be a source of sorrow and regret it will be a time of reflection, remembrance, and celebration. I will always remember April 16th
but I will celebrate the time that I gain not only 13 new sisters, but I also became a part of a worldwide sisterhood.
I was doing more than learning to survive in this new phase, this new chapter of my life, I was learning to live. I am stepping out into new horizons and experiencing things I have never experienced before. I have people who love and encourage me to be myself and not to fear what God has in store for me.
Someone very special told me “I could do anything I put my mind to do.”
I am stepping out on faith and giving this new chapter in my life a try. Does it terrify me to think about putting my heart and myself out there after 30 years? YES, it does. Nevertheless, it is all a part of the process of moving forward.
FAITH OVER FEAR
I am activating God’s plan for the rest of my life. I am plugging into what he has already instilled in me. I may not have known what the future holds but God did, and HE has prepared me for it, and I am ready for whatever HE has in store for me next. Chapter 2 is underway.
I love you all!
Be at peace & Have a Beautifully & Blessed Day!