How I Fought to Reclaim My Favorite Season
September 23, 2021
Yesterday, September 22, 2021, was the first day of Fall, my favorite time of the year. Anyone who knows me knows that I started talking about missing my boots, sweaters, and fall weather in late August. (Yes, they do speak to me and call my name… lol) Just kidding! I love the cool air, the changing colors of the trees, yes, the time to wear my boots and sweaters. I allowed the enemy to use my grief and depression to control everything I loved for a few years.
From the middle of September to November, I used to call it my dark season. During this time, five years ago, my life took a turn for the worse when my late husband passed. I don’t need to tell you the pain and distress I felt deep in my soul. The enemy tried to take over my existence with thoughts of suicide and depression. He tried to take my family’s way, and he almost succeeded in taking away my favorite season and turned it into a gloomy and miserable reality.
But because I am the daughter of the King and He loves me beyond anything, I could even imagine.
He pull me out of that existence back into His presence of Joy, Love, and Peace. It was a tough uphill battle, but I prayed, and others prayed along with me along the way. I had to allow Jesus to minister to the Holy Spirit and guide me to get the help that I so desperately needed to combat this way of feeling and thinking. I could not and cannot fight this war alone; I had to be honest with myself and those around me. I had to make some tough decisions, and I still make them every single day. This new normal that I live is not easy, but when I get up and breathe and live on this side of the earth, I know that God still has a purpose for my life.
Jesus, my family, my village, and my therapist, helped me to win the battle for my insanity, peace, and mental health. The war is still raging every second, but now I am one step ahead of the enemy. Why? I have a village of people across the world who will lift my name and my family’s name in their prayers: my friends, like sisters, and sorority sisters who encourage and support me.
My daughters ShaRonda and Morgan keep me on my toes, and their love and encouragement mean the world to me. I want to be an example of a strong woman who is not afraid to take risks or reach out for help. I want them to be proud of me.
My longtime brother, Minster Kai Brown, told me, “Don’t Worry, Pray.”
In every sense of the word except by physical blood, my sisters Laura Coaxum always told me to “Stay Close.” And Sharron Williams said, “Lo, Trust God.”
My spiritual mentor Elaine Belardo has encouraged me when she is dealing with her struggles that God is at work in the detours and roadblocks of my life.
My heart, my Chapter 2, Sam Moore, through his love and encouragement he tells me that I can do anything I put my mind to do.
My therapist Dr. Phifer, when I first sat down in her office, told me that God loved me, and he had never left me. She has given me the tools to keep me mentally healthy and my head clear so I can clearly hear from God.
I stayed ahead of the enemy, not by my might or any power I could have, but it is the power of Jesus that is at work through me.
I am not perfect, nor is my life perfect, and I still make mistakes every day. However, I so serve and worship a perfect God who not only loves me unconditionally, but HE loves you just as much!
Whatever the devil has stolen from you, tap into the power of Jesus that resides in you and reclaim it back!
Reclaim your Peace, Joy, and the Love that the Father has for you!
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.Philippians 4:7
If I can do it, so can you!!
I love you all with the love of Christ!