Faith & Trust – Fear

Wednesday, 20 May 2020

It has been a while since I have blogged, and I have resisted writing this blog post.  God has been speaking to me about trust, and it has been the topic of our prayer line and others. I did not know what I wanted to say, but when God is tugging at your spirit, you must submit, or at least I submit.

You would think that with COVID-19 and the stay at home orders life would have slowed down for me.  I am blessed to work from home, but I am also a part-time graduate student, and I still had duties to my church, community, and sorority.  I have often wondered how I was maintaining before.

“But GOD” 

As I sit here and ponder about the states and cities opening back up and can’t help but wonder if it is too soon.  I don’t go out much, and I must admit I do panic a little when I go to certain grocery stores.  I try to stick to shopping at the commissary and the BX on the fort.  They have handled this crisis with military order and professionalism.

Our nation is trying to go back to normal, but what is normal?  I don’t think that we will ever be normal. So, what are our choices?   We can choose to live in fear or have faith and trust God.  Let’s talk about the latter.

2nd Timothy says God has not given us a spirit of fear but of love, peace, and a sound mind. 

Fear does not come from the Lord. 

I have tried to write this blog since last week, and I could not put the words together. But earlier this week, one of my prayer leaders spoke about praise and then another day trust.  He said, “Praise is justified just because it is!” He also stated, “We must trust and have faith in God.”

For what I have experienced in my life, I have learned to have faith and trust God.  I have also learned how to praise him while I am expecting.

While I was in the deep state of depression
While I was going through the early stages of grief
While I did not know how to pray for myself
When I did not want to live
When I did not know how I would make it to the next day
When I could not stop crying

One thing I finally realized was that God had NOT forgotten me!

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He grieved with me
He pleaded for me
He kept me alive
He made sure I made it to the next moment
He consoled and cared for me when I was crying

God did all of this for me, but I had to let go of my fear of living and have faith and trust that God would carry me through it all.

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It did not matter what I faced; I had to press on, and I had to persevere.  I had to survive and live, but first, I had to TRUST.

 

 

 

So, I ask you today, no matter what if going on in your life.
No matter what situation you are facing
No matter what the world or the doctors are saying.

Whose report will you believe?

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So, ask you today…

Faith & Trust or Fear? The choice is always yours.

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I love you all
Be Blessed in the Lord

 

Triumph or Defeat

May 20, 2020

The face you see in this picture is the face of Triumph!

Thank you, Jesus

Faith Under Pressure
Consider it a sheer gift, friends, when tests and challenges come at you from all sides. You know that under pressure, your faith-life is forced into the open and shows its true colors. So, don’t try to get out of anything prematurely. Let it do its work, so you become mature and well-developed, not deficient in any way.
James 1:2-4 MSG

How are you going to respond to the cross you have to bear today?

How will you respond to what you are going through today?

We were asked those questions on the prayer line this week.

When I was a baby, my father left.
At the age of 4, I lost my mother to cancer.
At the age of 12, I lost one of the good men in my life, my grandfather.
Somewhere during those years, I was abused by a family friend. (I told no one)
In 2000 my grandmother, who raised me, passed.
In 2002 my mother-in-love passed.
In 2007 I lost my auntie, who helped raised me.
In 2015 I lost my uncle, who was like a dad to me passed.
In 2016 I became a widow after 29 years of marriage at the age of 50.

At this point, I thought I was going to lose my mind, because what was my reason to go on. I kept thinking I had lost everyone in my life that I could depend on and who loved me.  I felt alone and defeated.

BUT I WAS NOT…

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Sometime, somehow in my life, Jesus deeply rooted his power deep within my soul because he knew that I would need to access that power one day.

When I look back over my life after all the loss, abuse, devastation, I was never alone because God was always with me.  I had to tap into the power that was rooted in my soul so many years ago.  I triumph and was not defeated because I had reconnected to Jesus.
I don’t know how people live through pain and tragedy without Jesus.

Here we are today morning as a nation with the entire world.
How will you react? How will you survive? How will you existent?

Will you allow yourself to wallow in self-pity, disappointment, fear, or defeatism?

OR

Will you choose to live in expectation, victory, success, rejoicing, and praising?

You tell me, will you live in triumph or defeat?

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Now thanks be to God who always leads us in triumph in Christ
2nd Corinthians 2:14

I love you all!
Be Blessed in the Lord!

Never Ever Give Up!

God has a perfect plan for all of our lives. Even if life seems hopeless right now and all you can see is what is in front of you. I need you to know that there is hope in the midst of every trial, every circumstance, and every storm.

The Bible says, “There’s more to come: We continue to shout our praise even when we’re hemmed in with troubles, because we know how troubles can develop passionate patience in us, and how that patience, in turn, forges the tempered steel of virtue, keeping us alert for whatever God will do next. In alert expectancy such as this, we’re never left feeling shortchanged. Quite the contrary-we can’t round up enough containers to hold everything God generously pours into our lives through the Holy Spirit!” Romans 5:3-5 (MSG)

There is always hope!

Why??

Because GOD is in the middle of our circumstance, working it out on our behalf.

We are NEVER in this battle of life alone.

It took me a while to realize there was hope, even in my circumstances.

I know that no one wants to become alone and a widow at 50, but I still have hope in GOD that he has my back.

I have grieved, cried, I have broken down… but because of God, I have always gotten back up and keep moving!

When the enemy tries to convince me that I should quit and give up, God was always there, whispering daughter, “you can do this, I got you!”

My hope in GOD is not shallow or misinformed. It is deeply rooted in my soul, so I know that God will always make a way.

I tell my daughters to never give up on anything they start, no matter how hard it is or how long it takes… WE COMPLETE THE TASK!

I will never back down…

I will never give up…

I will continue to have hope in GOD!

Hope in GOD will never disappoint!

Have an amazing day!!

I love you all!


Faith Over Fear

The threat that we face as a nation is going to test everything. It going to test our Faith in GOD, our sanity, our economy, and our families.

But I AM NOT AFRAID!  Three years ago, during this very same time frame, I named my blog “Blessing in the Storm,” because during that time in my life I was going through the worst storm in my life. 

The dark clouds had consumed me, the high winds were ripping my house apart, shaking the very foundation of my life.  I was sinking fast in a catastrophe storm like I had never seen before. 

During this time, I often cried out and asked GOD:

Why me?

Why him?

Why my family?

Why now?!

During this same time in March 2016, my family received what we now realized news that would shake us to our core.  Its cancer.  This news tested everything I believed, everything I knew, and the very one I put all my faith hope and trust. 

But through it all my Faith in Jesus:

I am a conquer

I am a survivor

I am an overcomer

No, life is not perfect, but if I can have Faith in God through the most horrific time of my life, I will continue to trust him.

Now my foundation is stronger.  The enemy broke me down and beat me badly, and he nearly destroyed me, but he hates that he did not destroy me. I was crushed but not broken nor destroyed, and he loathes the fact that I give GOD all the glory.

THANK YOU, JESUS!!!

That is my story, my testimony about how God saved me. (if you would like to know more you can read my first blog post blessinginthestorm.com/2018/08/24/the-journey-begins/

Now we face a massive crisis as a nation.

I know that with Coronavirus hitting us from all sides.  We have to shelter in place at our homes, there are some of us working from home, and some of us have been laid off. Our loved ones are sick, and some, unfortunately, are making their transition to be with Jesus. 

Many of us are worried and fearful, and I get it.

But I was ready!  I will tell you why in a moment.

My youngest daughter Morgan said something to me when the shelter in place started to happen.  She said, “People are panicking about sheltering in place and not going out. I have been preparing for this my whole life.” My Morgan is a true introvert, and anyone that knows her was not surprised by her statement.  

But she got me thinking.  Four years ago, I began my preparation for what is going on now.

I have been in the dark pits of hell, and I don’t plan on going back.  God took my pain, anger, depression, and fear and turn them into a weapon of Faith.

I am not the same person I was in March 2016; I am much stronger! 

When you have been through hell, and the Lord brings you out of it… you don’t want to go back!

I attended two church services today, and the two sermons that talked about storms in our lives came from the same scripture reference. (Matthew 14:22-35). “But Jesus immediately said to them: “Take courage! It is I. Don’t be afraid.” (Vs 27) Both pastors talked about “Don’t Fear.”

When my late husband died, I was afraid, scared, fearful, and alone.  But I gave everything over to GOD! My fear, my loneliness, depression, suicidal thoughts, and my anger.

I worry as well about this virus, but one thing I refused to do is live in fear.

So…

In this season, I am still choosing to live in Faith, not fear!

I am choosing to focus on GOD

I am choosing to PRAY

I am choosing to focus on my family

I am choosing to focus on my relationship

I am choosing to focus on my friends

I am choosing to focus on the things that GOD has for me

“You intended to harm me, but God intended it for good to accomplish what is now being done, the saving of many lives.” (Genesis 50:20)

I challenge you today to walk by Faith

I challenge you to turn your fears over to GOD

I challenge you to take Jesus hand and step out of the boat

I challenge you to keep your eyes on GOD and not on the situation

I challenge you to choose Faith over fear

Remember, we are not alone, and no matter what, GOD is with us!

Stay close to GOD

Be Safe, Stay Inside,

Be Clean, Wash those hands

I love you all

But GOD loves you even more!

Where Do You Stand?

Where Do You Stand?

5 February 2020

I am going to say something that may not be popular, but oh well.

I may lose some Facebook friends and some “friends,” but oh well…

If I have to think and act like you then… You were not my friend anyway!

You can delete me, or I can remove you… not an issue!

Well, I am not sitting back watching in the wings any longer! I will no longer bite my tongue.

I made a post earlier that said it only takes one person to change the world….

I have always been careful about what I post. I don’t demean or drag anyone in social media.

I am tired of we as a people and as a nation sitting back quietly while the morals in this country go to hell in a handbasket!

I am tired of posts by myself, or others getting attacked every time we oppose this leader, and no one comes to our defense! Silence IS acceptance!

I am tired of preaching and teaching my kids and my church babies that they need to do what is right, and they always need to treat people with respect, and yet it is not mirrored by our leaders. Then we are asked why?

I am tired of sitting by and watching people criticize anything someone says or does. Still, when Trump, the leader of this nation, demeans on social media and in national appearances, it is excused or ignored.

He has degraded a decorated war hero, mocked someone with a disability on national TV– 16-year-old child--, and the Central Park Exonerated. He has called women everything but their names, and even insinuated that a widow’s husband was in hell looking up at her! If we teach and tell our kids this is wrong, then why is it tolerated for this President?

People who I know to be God-fearing Christians stand by and never make a single post when this man is attacking someone in the most unchristian like way. But they are ready to drag Nancy Pelosi and anyone else though the mud when they oppose him. Posting demeaning memes is a characteristic of who? What would Jesus do?

Where is the grace?

Before anyone says it is not the same thing… What would you do if your child’s school called and said your child was behaving in this manner?

I know mine had better NOT EVER!!!

Posting about what happened during the State of the Union…. Don’t think that we have not forgotten behavior that was exhibited by the Republicans when President Obama gave his State of the Union addresses.

You said nothing when Michelle Obama, who is a Harvard and Princeton graduate, had a stellar law career, and also just earned her Ph.D. was dragged and attacked about the way she looked or for wearing short sleeves. You said nothing when she was called out of her name, and even her daughters were attacked. In fact, some laughed. But you give the current First Lady high praise when she has…. (I won’t also mention such vulgarities here). Don’t even get me started on Obama’s birth certificate and Trump’s taxes.

My point is…

I have been voting for a long time, and I have not agreed with everything any president has done. Until this current administration, I have always held all of our presidents in the highest regard.

HOWEVER, I have said this before, and I will keep saying it. As a Christian, educated, black woman, I will never support anyone regardless of their race, creed, religious affiliation, or political party who is morally corrupt! I do, and I will continue to pray for this President and the leaders of our nation, but I will NOT support, make excuses, nor condone what he does.

I will continue to pray, fight, and speak up like my ancestors did before me. 

I will work to ensure that the civil rights and voting rights of all Americans stay intact and are respected.

I will not be silent. 

I will not back down. 

I chose to fight for the people whose voices cannot be heard. 

I do and will always choose love!

The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.” Reverend Martin Luther King, Jr.

Where do you stand?

Trust God

His results are amazing!
Thursday, January 23, 2020

Hey Beloveds,

Of Course, when the Lord inspires as me to write well…I write. I tried everything to make this post yesterday, but I ran up against so many roadblocks!

However, it did give me more time to think about what Minister Kai said yesterday morning about digging out of the deep, out of the darkness. This morning he talked about peace and being who God created us to be, and we can’t do that until we find the peace that only GOD can give.

Many of you know I have been in the valley of the shadow of death. I was in the bottomless pit of darkness. It was not easy digging and climbing out of that pit, but I know that I could not have done it without the Lord.

I could not see the light at the end of the tunnel, the dark pit of despair. It was easier for me to stay where I was are rather than charter to the unknown and try digging myself out. Let me tell you, staying in the dark pit is no place for us to be, and God does not want us to stay there. I had a temporary residence in this hellacious pit!

This is a place where the enemy lives and rules.

The devil loves that place because in his home in his presence…

There is disparity
There is desperateness
There is no peace
There is judgment
There is evil
There are suicidal thoughts
Everything that is the opposite of what our Father wants for us is in that bottomless dark pit of despair.

The Good News is you don’t have to stay there!
Yes, there is a way out!

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You MUST trust God through the process
You MUST lean on him
You MUST put all your faith
You MUST put hope
You MUST believe in him

 

 

 

 

I promise He will lead you out of that pit.
He will put all the necessary resources that you will need to help you get and stay out!

Please don’t give up and trust God. He has always been there. He is still here for you!
He said that HE will never leave you nor forsake you! 100% TRUTH!!

In my moments of despair and desperation, God did not leave me.
I was hurt. I was angry. I felt hopeless.
I left him. I walked away. I turned my back. I chose not to trust.
I decided to let the enemy in my head.

But God was there!
HE never left my side!
He was continually telling me that he loves me
That he has plans for me
He said that it was NOT my time

But, even during my time in the darkness, HE used me, and HE never gave up on me, and eventually, I didn’t give up on myself.
But I had a choice to make….

I had to choose to be who God created me to be, He equipped me for this time
I had to choose to dig out, but I didn’t dig out alone
I had to choose to live, but I don’t live alone
I had to choose to heal, but I did not heal alone
I had to choose to pray, but I did pray alone
I had to decide to step out on faith, but I DON’T walk alone
I have my JESUS with me every step of the way!

“Only those who believe that Jesus Christ is God’s Son can overcome the world”
                                                                                     1 John 5:4

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I overcame my circumstances because I did not give up. I fought hard, and I trusted God because HE believed in me, and I believed in JESUS!
Thank you, LORD!

I love you all!
Have a fantastic day!

JESUS JOY

Happy New Year!!!

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JESUS JOY

I am not going to blog or write about my expectations for 2020. Yes, even my daughters were shocked.

I have my goals and what I want out of 2020, but I am choosing to move silently, allowing GOD to direct my path. Anything God has for me, I am ready to receive.

However, our prayer focus for this morning was perfect, and God placed it upon my heart to share my journey to JESUS JOY.

If you have not read my post over the past 4 years or my blog, I lost my late husband in October of 2016. I suffered from depression, suicidal thoughts, feelings of worthlessness, I was an understandable mess. But God was not having it, and honestly, neither was I!

I have moved forward with my life and I have so much JOY and genuine happiness in my life!

I had to dig deep to find the Joy that God had placed in me when he formed me before I was placed in my mother’s womb. It was JESUS JOY

It is something that has carried me for the past 3 years going in my 4th year.

Year 1 Restoration
Year 2 Renewal
Year 3 Rejuvenation
Year 4 Discovery.
(I will write about these at a later date)

Joy, true JESUS JOY is rooted deep within our soul, and only Jesus can give us that pure Joy!

NO ONE can be truly happy without JESUS JOY.

I can tell you, I am a living witness… it is a facade, it is fake happiness.

The Lord saved me from my dark place, and I am not the person I was three years ago. HIS JOY was, and is definitely my strength!

Happiness in a surface emotion, but the true JESUS JOY that comes from the LORD is deeper.

It requires something from us…
It requires us to take some action…
It requires us to have something…
It requires us to be somewhere

What does it require? 

It requires us to have something… FAITH

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My faith is a foundation on which I have always stood, so holding on to my faith was not hard. I just needed to be reminded of and remind myself that God is still with me no matter what! Faith is something that does not just happen faith some after you have been through some things, and we have sought God, and he has been there. Faith is not in the CHURCH faith is IN GOD and only GOD!

It requires us to take some action… pray, petition, and or (if needed) seek therapy

We have to want Joy in our lives. I know for me I did not want to feel depressed, I knew that deep down I did not want to commit suicide, but I also knew that I had to do something about the thoughts that were tormenting my mind. I had to pray, and others were praying for me. I mention the prayer focus above that comes from a prayer line where we get together Monday through Friday morning to pray for each other, our community, and this country. The saints on that prayer line and others prayed me out of the darkness, and God let me to therapy. Believe me, both were desperately needed.

It requires something from us… total surrender

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We cannot give something over to God and keep picking it up. Ether, we give it to him and let it go, or we keep worrying about it.

Worrying will prevent you from having JESUS JOY.

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It requires us to be somewhere… In a position to receive

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JESUS JOY just won’t come and perch its self on you. It requires you to be in a position to receive it. After you have kept the faith, prayed, and given over whatever is keeping you from God’s Joy, then you are in a position to receive true JESUS JOY. It will not be easy because the enemy will try to convince us that happiness and Joy are the same things. THEY ARE NOT! He will try to convince us that we do not need JESUS JOY.

I believe we were created and born with Jesus Joy, but life circumstances will cause us to suppress it. Think about a child they are joyful. Think about a baby’s belly laugh; it will bring a smile to our face and warmth to our heart. They are experiencing pure and true JESUS JOY. It is the strength that sustains us.

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I am the poster child for choosing Joy regardless of my circumstances. I refuse to give the enemy any joy, kudos, or accolades over my life. God has been way too good for me to allow this to happen.

If I am declaring and promoting anything publicly for 2020, I am declaring that I continue I choose and promote that I still choose to have JESUS JOY over anything.

When you think about Jesus Joy, it’s clear and straightforward…

The Joy of the Lord is your strength.
(Nehemiah 8:10)