Wednesday, 20 May 2020
It has been a while since I have blogged, and I have resisted writing this blog post. God has been speaking to me about trust, and it has been the topic of our prayer line and others. I did not know what I wanted to say, but when God is tugging at your spirit, you must submit, or at least I submit.
You would think that with COVID-19 and the stay at home orders life would have slowed down for me. I am blessed to work from home, but I am also a part-time graduate student, and I still had duties to my church, community, and sorority. I have often wondered how I was maintaining before.
As I sit here and ponder about the states and cities opening back up and can’t help but wonder if it is too soon. I don’t go out much, and I must admit I do panic a little when I go to certain grocery stores. I try to stick to shopping at the commissary and the BX on the fort. They have handled this crisis with military order and professionalism.
Our nation is trying to go back to normal, but what is normal? I don’t think that we will ever be normal. So, what are our choices? We can choose to live in fear or have faith and trust God. Let’s talk about the latter.
2nd Timothy says God has not given us a spirit of fear but of love, peace, and a sound mind.
Fear does not come from the Lord.
I have tried to write this blog since last week, and I could not put the words together. But earlier this week, one of my prayer leaders spoke about praise and then another day trust. He said, “Praise is justified just because it is!” He also stated, “We must trust and have faith in God.”
For what I have experienced in my life, I have learned to have faith and trust God. I have also learned how to praise him while I am expecting.
While I was in the deep state of depression
While I was going through the early stages of grief
While I did not know how to pray for myself
When I did not want to live
When I did not know how I would make it to the next day
When I could not stop crying
One thing I finally realized was that God had NOT forgotten me!
He felt every pain
He grieved with me
He pleaded for me
He kept me alive
He made sure I made it to the next moment
He consoled and cared for me when I was crying
God did all of this for me, but I had to let go of my fear of living and have faith and trust that God would carry me through it all.
It did not matter what I faced; I had to press on, and I had to persevere. I had to survive and live, but first, I had to TRUST.
So, I ask you today, no matter what if going on in your life.
No matter what situation you are facing
No matter what the world or the doctors are saying.
Whose report will you believe?
So, ask you today…
Faith & Trust or Fear? The choice is always yours.
I love you all
Be Blessed in the Lord