July 5, 2019
My Therapy Experience
My experience with therapy has been nothing but awesome and positive. God had led me to an amazing therapist, which I connected with, and I started my journey to healing and wellness.
Remember those stages of grief I told you about earlier, I have hit them all and I sometimes bounce back and forth between them depending on the triggers or what is going on in my life at the time. In February of 2017, when I sat down with my therapist the first thing she said was, “Lolita, tell me what is going on with you.” I started to tell her all the things that had been going on in my life thus far. After about 30 minutes and many Kleenex later, I finally let her speak. She said, “Lolita, I first want you to know that you have done nothing wrong and God is always with you.” I knew that because she first acknowledged God before anything else I knew that I was in the right place and that God had led me to the right therapist.
I started out seeing my therapist twice a month. I had a lot of things I needed to work out and my emotions, my moods, and my thoughts were all over the place. My therapist was able to give me the tools I needed to combat and battle depression. After attending a few sessions, I knew that there was no way would I be able to do this on my own. Yes, I did pray and I prayed a lot. My village was praying for me and getting therapy was the answer to our prayers. However, I had to get off my butt and seek help instead of sinking deeper and deeper into depression. God would not let me give up, so off to therapy I went.
Session after session I felt myself becoming stronger and coping with my emotions. I was able to be a strong mother for my daughters and others who were grieving along with us. I remember after one of my sessions I thought to myself, “I am going to make it,” “The enemy will NOT win,” “I will survive this,” “Victory is mine because I have victory in JESUS.”
It was because of my therapy that I am writing this blog. It is because of therapy I am alive to write this blog! I wanted others to know that therapy is not a bad thing. Therapy is not the taboo or this evil that has been wrongly categorized in our community for years. Therapy is very healthy and I believe that for me it is essential to my self-care.
I have been in therapy for over two years now. By now, monthly sessions have been crucial to my overall well-being. My head is clearer, I can think straight, and my therapist is helping me to work on future goals, now that I know that I still have a future. Yes, I believe the Lord always had a plan for me but I also know that I could not see past my own hurt, pain, misery, destruction and whatever negative word you can insert, to accept and embrace HIS plan.
Therapy for me is a gateway to help me see past any negative thoughts or perceptions I have about my life or myself. This has enabled me to see the bright and prosperous future that the Lord has intended for me. Remember you are stronger than you think you are. Do not be afraid to seek the help you need. Make that appointment with a therapist today. You should be afraid if you do not seek help and end up staying in the same depressive state you may be currently experiencing, and THAT is NOT healthy!
It is not about “telling your business,” or “keeping things in the house”. It is about making sure you are mentally healthy. It is about taking care of yourself. It is about self-motivation, self-care, and self-preservation. It is about learning how to breathe again and discovering that joy again in your life.
I know that if I can do it so can everyone else!
I love you all!
Be at peace & Have a Beautifully Blessed Day!