December 24, 2018
Hey everyone! I have not been writing as frequently as I would like. I think I must have had some sort of writer’s block. I love to write but I have not been able to focus on writing. So, here I am at 2:30 AM and I get an urge to write.
I know all of my writing this year have been focused on grief and my grief journey. Michael’s death jump started my writing because it was fueled by my grief, sadness, depression, and unhappiness. My therapist discovered that I love to write, and this has been a great tool for me, because for two years I had an outlet to pour out my grief, sadness and unhappiness. It has been very therapeutic for me to write about what I was experiencing and feeling. God always has a way of taking your most painful moments, moments you never thought you would survive in a million years. He took my struggles, trials and tribulations, and made them into lifelong learning lessons and testimonies to further encourage myself and others. He is so amazing that way!
I have not always been happy, but I have always had genuine, deep down, soul saving, joy in my heart. Because I made that choice to embrace joy, it never went away, even in the midst of grief my Jesus given JOY never went away. Nothing will separate me from the love of God.
“And I am convinced that nothing can ever separate us from God’s love. Neither death nor life, neither angels nor demons, neither our fears for today nor our worries about tomorrow not even the powers of hell can separate us from God’s love. No power in the sky above or in the earth below indeed, nothing in all creation will ever be able to separate us from the love of God that is revealed in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:38-39) God’s unfailing love is amazing!!
My life is happy once again. I am doing and experiencing things that I have never done. I am accomplishing lifelong dreams, and I know there is so much more to come. I am loving life! Life is too short to live with regrets. You only get one life and you must live it to the fullest. I have these past three Christmas Season that life is what you make of it. You can choose to wallow in self-pity blaming the world for everything or you can choose how you live in it with all of its ups and downs. One of my favorite scriptures is “I can do ALL things through Christ who gives me strength” (Philippians 4:13) This means that no matter what I am going through the Lord will see me through it. The Lord is giving me a high-five and saying, “We got this!”
So, I am saying to you for this Christmas Season always remember the real meaning and reason for this season, no matter what you are going through. No matter what road you are on in your life, pray, have faith, and trust God that all roads leads to Him. In Him you will find your joy, peace, and love. Then from there you will find your direction in this life and discover the road to find your happiness once again.
I love you all
and Merry Christmas Eve!