The Ultimate Miracle

Will

October 17, 2018

Yesterday I woke up with such a heavy heart and on the verge of tears for most of the morning.  Yesterday, two years ago, that Michael was admitted to ICU and we were informed of the most devastating news of our life.  My husband of almost 29 years was on life support.  The tumor had quickly grown and covered his bronchial airways and he would never be able to survive without the machines.  We were going to lose the husband, father, son, brother, friend, mentor that we loved so much.

I can tell you sitting in the hospital room as the doctors briefed us on Michael’s prognoses, is a day I will never forget.  I felt like an inflated balloon inflated to its capacity, then someone let go of the bottom, and all of the air quickly deflated.  My heart sunk as I went back into his room and selfishly thought how we were going to survive without him.

We encouraged the doctors to run all the necessary tests and we prayed that we could beat the odds.  Each test came back with the same results.  Michael was in ICU for ten days and with each passing day is vitals became worse and the machines had to work a little more for him every day.  His organs were starting to fail has his body was physically tired and shutting down little by little.  It is a tough to know that just a few days ago, we were having conversations, making plans for the holidays, and his mind was sharp as ever, but now the body was so weak it was failing him.  We prayed, prayed, and kept hope until the moment he was off life support that he would make a miraculous recovery…

You know what; he did make a miraculous recovery!  It was the Ultimate Miracle!

IT was not what we had expected, wanted, or thought would happened, but we had always prayed for God’s will to be done throughout this whole journey, from Michael’s  diagnoses  to his heavenly transition. GOD’s will was done…

He is walking and talking with JESUS and so many other family and friends that have gone on before him.  Michael was healed perfectly that Tuesday afternoon when he walked away from that hospital bed and out of the room into the arms of JESUS!  Jesus said that is time on earth was finished and he was hearing “Well done my good and faithful servant!”  Which is supposed to be the ultimate goal for all Christians.

You see, as Christians we have to accept that GOD’s timing is not our timing, HIS thoughts are not our thoughts, and HIS ways are not our ways! (THANK GOD!)

“For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways, declares the Lord.  For as the heavens are higher than the earth, so are my ways higher than your ways and my thoughts than your thoughts.” (Isaiah 55:8-9)

I cannot write this Blog and tell you that this has been a cakewalk and I never shed a tear.  WRONG!
I have cried until my head ached…
I have screamed until my voice was horse (Those poor people at the cemetery)…
I have been angry with GOD, Michael, the doctors, the Military, and myself…
I have been in a dark and desolate place where I did not want to live…
I have tried to drink the pain way…
I have tried to ignore the pain…

However, through GOD I am surviving the unthinkable and unspeakable…
Through GOD, I found comfort and peace…
Through GOD, I am using the pain to help myself and others heal…
Through GOD, I got my joy back…
Through GOD, I wanted to live and love again…
Through GOD, I am happy, healthy, and whole…

Yesterday did get better!  I refused to let the devil have any glory in my day.  God will always place people in your life at the time when you need them the most.  My support system is A+!  My village is amazing! By the end of the day, I was smiling!  I went to with joy and left with conformation of something that I already knew… I have the victory because JESUS has already won the battle for me.  We just need to plug into it to activate it!

I love you all!
Have an Amazing Day!

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