October 15, 2018
As I was reflecting back on this weekend events, I had a great weekend! I had dinner, movies, (anticipated Venom, the critics were wrong!) and games with my girls. I worked my side hustle (Premier Designs Jewelry) and fellowship with some awesome sisters. We also braved the cold weather and participated in a walk that was in remembrance of their dad and my late husband Michael David Law. He was an amazing husband, father, son, brother, uncle, friend, and mentor. He was a big advocate for the education and the empowerment of our youth. His Fraternity, The Pi Omicron Lambda Chapter of Alpha Phi Alpha Fraternity sponsors the Leavenworth Awareness Walk, (LAW Walk) this was the 2nd year for this annual event. This event is in two parts, to continue his work for raising scholarship money for deserving High school seniors. Different organizations in the community to network with each other, find out what we do in and for the community, and how we can help each other.
It was very surreal as a looked around during the event. I was in a very different mindset the first year. I was feeling physically and emotionally drained, uncertain about my future and the future of my girls. I was energized at the people who came out to support the walk, donated, and some just because they knew Michael.
This year’s walk I have grown and I am taking control of my life. I have a lot of work to do but, I am stronger, I am confident that I can achieve anything I put my mind to! Because God said that, I can do all things through Christ who gives me all the strength I need. I have an awesome village, my support system of people, who love and care about my family and our well being. Mostly I have my Father in heaven who has always had me in the palm his hand from day one! I was never alone and neither are you!
I saw a quote one day that says, “Grief never ends. Nevertheless, it changes. It is a passage, not a place to stay. Grief is not a sign of weakness, nor a lack of faith. It is the price of love.” My girls and I are walking with our heads held high into year two of this grief journey/passage. Our faith in GOD is the only thing that has kept us standing along this journey. There were times when I did not know if I was going to make it through the next second not to mention year two! I could not think, breath, and I did not want to live. However, here I am surviving, strong, confident, and I am living the best life that I know how to live. I have reached lifelong milestones in the last two years. Guess what? GOD is not through with me yet! He still has much work for me, but I am ready.
Dear Past, Thanks for all the lessons!
Dear future, I am ready!
I am ready for the next phase, the new chapter in my life!
I am ready for what God has for me!
I am ready to be all that HE wants me to be!
I am ready! Are you?