September 30, 2018
I have always tried to be very vocal and up front about my grief journey. From the time, my late husband, Mike Law wrote his first “Ground Truth” he set the path to be open and honest about what our family was going through. God put it upon our hearts to be open and honest about our circumstances. We wanted people to know that no matter what we have faith and hope in the midst of the battle we were facing. We wanted people to know that no matter what the circumstances are God is ultimately still in control. It did not matter what it looked like or what the doctors said, God always had the final say.
I know many of you read this and know our outcome, and say, “How can she still think this way after everything that has happened”? That answer is easy… I still believe, hope, have faith, and trust in a sovereign GOD that loves me without any conditions and HE knows what is best for my life and me. I know that Michael has taken the final and ultimate journey, to be with Jesus Revelations 21:4-5 states,“He will wipe every tear from their eyes. There will be no more death’ or mourning or crying or pain, for the old order of things has passed away.” He who was seated on the throne said, “I am making everything new!”Then he said, “Write this down, for these words are trustworthy and true.” Therefore, I continue to trust GOD’s decisions for my life, whether I agree with it or, like it or not, I chose, and I will continue to choose to trust GOD. I still want people to know that there is life after death for those that are left behind to grieve.
We are allowed to grieve!
We are allowed to live!
We are allowed to love!
Matthew 5:4 states, “Blessed are those who mourn for they shall be comforted”and Psalm 147:3 states, “He heals the brokenhearted, and binds up their wounds.” Some people reach this mindset after a long struggle with themselves and God. I thank GOD that HE planted this seed deep down inside my soul because he knew that I would need it one day. God knows, and HE is still faithful!
God has given me specifics things that I am supposed to be doing in this season of my life. Through the help of my therapist and some very important people in my life, I am ready to step out on faith. My first task was to start this blog a couple of months ago. I signed up on the site, but I did not publish it or start writing. Yes, I was terrified but… Believe me if GOD gives you a task, it should scare the life out of you and the first instinct you will have is to run away and yep, I did!
BUT!!!!…I will no longer allow the enemy to invade my mind, thoughts, words, and actions. Psalm 56:3-4 states, “When I am afraid, I put my trust in you. In God, whose word I praise in God I trust and am not afraid.”
“The LORD will fulfill his purpose for me.”
I know it will not be easy, but I know that through GOD it is possible because through HIM all things are possible!
IF you are reading this… Thank you and Please follow me if you like but more importantly…. Pray for me that I have the courage to continue to do what the LORD wants from me. I am doing this scared, but I am doing this! The enemy will not win this battle, because I know that the LORD is with me every step of the way.
I love you all!
Have and Amazingly Blessed Night!